It's only a matter of time

I'm not in a good condition now..

It feels like I will never be okay...

But I've been through this before and it's even worse..

So I believe one day I'll be as good as I was before..

Heartbroken can drive you really crazy and somehow I get motivation from it..

It show's that I'm capable of changing..

I keep repeating myself that this is all just a phase and everything will be fine and I'm gonna be okay..

It's only a matter of time..

Hang in there man..

:)

Here we are

I hope everyone stays safe and happy..
So.. Here I am writing this blog post at home because yeah I'm still working from home..
So, I'm doing well here at home working my ass off as we're going to move to another office and I'm one of the project teams that handling the IT stuff..
Well, I've been working in Project Management before but I was the service that provides the service to the client..
But now I am the client and by that, it's quite a pain in the ass too..
Back then I thought the client requested this and that to me to be delivered like it's an easy task to be done..
But now I'm the annoying client that requests all that stuff to our vendors..
And if that's not what the management wanted I wouldn't be asked for it from them..

Oh but it's kind of exciting that I've been working with a lot of vendors from different regions.
I've been communicated with UK, Australia, India, Canada, and a few other countries that I didn't remember just to get information regarding their products or a demo for a system..
It was a quite exciting time to be able to speak with them with different types of pronunciations and how they talked to each other..
And I could practice my speech when talking my second language with them..
Yeah, it was fun! In a way....


Anyhow,
How's life going with the pandemic still running lose around us?
Yeah, it's quite a hectic year and there's a lot happened to me as well..
Sooo.. I was heartbroken again after knowing someone in just a few weeks..
I guess because I'm turning to 30 this year and I really looking for a serious thing to happen..
But things won't work the way we wanted and if they were it might not gonna long last..
Well, I'm trying to see it in a positive way.. Ha ha..
People will give you things they thought was right and you accepted it because at that time you really need it..
Lesson learned though, but I'm still hoping all that stuff can be real and back at me again..
And I did things that annoyed that person and got me blocked hahaha..
Not that I never blocked that person before because I'm a psychopath liddat... Haha..
So lets put the stupid thing aside and look for something better for myself now.. Other than you know... Ship thingy..
We did mistakes and we need to face the consequences on our own..
So I get involved with things that broke myself so I need to patch the crack back to its places..
And... That's that..

That's not my baby..