Ninetysix.

So Raya is tomorrow.
I'm not really excited though lol..
So aku ni team raya KL seperti biasa..
Was thinking to start hitting the gym on the second day of raya..
Sebab aku raya sehari je liddat..
Trololol

So again..
Aku baru sihat dari demam sekali lagi since Monday..
Hari ni rasa okay sikit..
I'm not sure why I'm getting so much fever lately.

So di kesempatan ini..
Boleh la aku meminta maaf dan ampun kepada saudara saudari..
Andai ada tersilap kata, terlanjur bicara tersakitkan hati and so on..
Minta maaf dipinta. I'm sorry. Please forgive me.
Hehe.

But to this one particular person.
I honestly am sorry for what I've done to you.
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.
.
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Actually banyak lagi aku compose tapi aku tak nak la publish here..
Nanti kau rasa aku ni macam desperate sangat pula which I already am.. Lol
Anyway..
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri..
Maaf zahir dan batin..
Beware of raya meals...
You don't need those extra weight... 
Cheers ; )

NinetyFive.

Ini post nak meratap sikit..
Lol

Pernah tak korang rasa attached with someone..
Dia bukan family member...
Bukan relative pun..
Just a stranger came to your life and changed you..
Lepas tu korang get attached...
Macam tau perangai dia and senang dengan kehadiran dia..

Macam aku la kan..
Aku ada lol
Apa aku buat is..
Aku tolak jejauh orang tu
Lepas tu a few months later..
I need that person back in my life
But it was too late
And I was devastated...
Down to the core
And did something I never did before in my life...

But let's face it..
We all make mistakes and we're trying to make it right again..
 Eventhough it seems very hard to do it we're still wanna try to do it...
And makin panjang aku typing aku rasa makin merepek dah..
Raya tinggal few days je..
So hopefully you guys well prepared!!

 Semalam masa berbuka dengan Syuk kat TGIF Wangsa WalkFirst time berbuka kat luar tahun ni bulan ramadan

NinetyFour.

So how life going on?
We're surviving aren't we?
Rasa macam puasa this year lama sikit sebab aku macam banyak kali tak sihat lol
Lepas demam yang seminggu tu aku demam semula few days after..
Tapi sehari jela which is alhamdulillah still sihat till now.
Sakit kan penghapus dosa kecil acewwaahhh..
And alhamdulillah puasa pun masih penuh..

Tadi around 8am like that masa tengah buat kerja tetiba aku rasa lapar
Awal lagi kot nak rasa lapar..
Lepas tu dalam 10am macam tu tetiba rasa haus pula..
Wehh wehh awal awal nak rasa lapar & dahaga dah kenapa ekk..
So... Aku pun bagi la makan...
Makan dengan ibadah dan zikir...
wakakakaka.. 



P/s: Hari ni macam nak berbuka roti john je.. *MACAM*

NinetyThree.

Kejap je dah hampir separuh Ramadan..
Nak raya ke tak?
Lol
Macam biasa kalau dah nak raya aku jeles ngan kawan kawan aku yang balik ke kampung..
Sebab aku takda kampung..
Ada pun kat Klang ngan Langat je lol
Balik hari..

Pastu the next day dah dok rumah dediam je..
Macam last year aku pergi main game ngan Ijat..
Hahahaha bebudak sungguh..
Tapi nasib kau la takda kampung kan..
Few years back masa raya abah ajak pergi ke kampung akak ipar ngan abang ipar kitorang..
Tapi since last year dah tak buat dah gitu..
Masa pergi kampung orang tu merasa la juga balik kampung kan..
Walaupun sampai sana sewa hotel.. LOL
Tapi kitorang gerak raya ke-2 la sebab raya first beraya kat KL dulu..

Kalau korang nak datang rumah beraya takyah la..
Jarang terima tetamu la kat rumah.. 
Kecuali member member yg tak reti malu macam bebudak uni ngan sekolah..
Oh membr TRCKL pun tak tau malu gak hahaha..

Selamat beribadah puasa semua..
And ohh.. I've activated my instagram cuz I'm bored like that.. And then my twitter gone forever cuz I'm reckless and forgot to activate it back when I should.. Guess it's for the best? No?
 
P/s: Tips kalau korang tengah haus masa puasa : amik air segelas.. Tenung sekejap.. Pastu togak minum.. kompem hilang haus.. Wakakaka..

Ninetytwo.

Salam Ramadhan.
Aku dah 2 hari demam ni.
Masa pepagi buta around 3AM to 5AM badan aku menggigil macam orang gila.
Lol.
And 2 kali kena macam tu.
Menggigil gila beb.
Sejuk gila rasa.
And then siang macam sekarang ni okay je pula.
But puasa must go on okay.. Haha

Anyway..
Pernah tak korang menyesal dengan keputusan yang korang buat dulu?
Yeaapp.. I have a lot and mostly I can accept it and let it go...
But there's one thing in particular and it involve someone else yang aku tak boleh nak let it go..
Aku nak betulkan or dengan kata lain aku nak dia balik dalam hidup aku.
Semua benda yang aku buat dulu aku rasa menyesal and aku tak patut buat..
Now it's too late I guess..
Seriously it really drive me crazy and thinking of doing something bad.
Tapi nasib baik masih boleh kawal lagi..
(iman didada walaupun tak kuat tapi ada lagi.. Hehe)

Aku masih berharap dia dapat terima aku semula..
Dia cakap dia dah maafkan aku and dia tak salahkan aku pun..
Tapi aku tau aku yang salah and it really kills me slowly..
Aku dah cuba lupakan tapi tak boleh..
And it's getting hard on me bila aku start cakap kat dia pasal ni..
Sebelum ni aku simpan je apa aku rasa sebab aku in denial (seriously?)

Tapi sekarang dah lambat dah..
Aku cakap kat dia aku akan tunggu sampai dia berubah hati and fikiran..
Dia cakap memula jangan tunggu sebab aku boleh dapat someone better..
(Lol the same word aku pernah cakap kat dia and aku kena balik)
Then dia cakap "who knows if I changed my mind later on."
And it give me a little spark of hope (acewahh) 

So korang korang yang baca ni..
Hargai orang yang sayang korang..
Hargai orang yang jaga korang, terima baik buruk korang..
Kang jadi macam aku menyesal tak sudah.
And thanks to my friends yang sentiasa ada bila aku down terukk..
Especially housemate aku, Syuk.
Also Jenny and Myra.




I miss us.. And you do too..
I know

Ninetyone.

Kita boleh google pasal haiwan. 
How to make an interaction or how to keep your pet alive and others. 
But for a person it's totally different.
Even you've heard or watch on how to do it on internet or from someone it'll never be the same.

A single person could hold so many thoughts in a second.
And we can never read their mind.
And sometime you can never understand yourself.
Lol

And that's why people come and go.
But family remains.
Aku pun ada je pernah merasa orang pergi and datang and then pergi balik.
Lol

Anywayy...  aku sekarang tengah buat experiment to myself.
To never use Instagram & Twitter.
I wanna try it up to 6 months. 
Let see if I could do it. 

 

Ninety.

Ninety lol.
I was born in 1990.
Exactly on today 15 September 1990.
Happy birthday to me.
So I don't really feel excited for my birthday as I should..
Because... All the plans for my birthday ruined. 
I'm so excited before that btw.
Very much.
I expected my birthday would be very.. Urmm very much..
But it turned out I stayed at home doing nothing..
And alone.. Sebab family aku semua pergi shopping..

Fuck