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So it's been for a few months already aku finally dapat kerja tempat lain.. 
TBH it was a dificult year for me..
Aku drastically quit my previous job dekat Bangsar South atas sebab dan alasan yang tertentu.. Lol
So it was a dark time for me.. 
Aku kena reject dengan orang, lepas tu kena reject kerja lagi.. Haha 
So aku rasa macam aku dah takda arah masa tu.. 
Lost gila babas punya..
Tapi still aku try very hard to get a job..
Pula tu susah nak cari kerja...
Yela dengan ekonomi yang tak berapa nak helpful..
So bermula lah episode hitam aku selama 6 bulan tak berkerja..
6 bulan aku lost hope.. 
Aku hampir give up..
Every night aku susah hati sebab hutang dah keliling pinggang ni..

Orang yang aku harapkan untuk ada dengan aku pun tak nak dengan aku masa tu..
So aku fikir mungkin sebab aku ni jobless and hopeless takkan la nak dengan aku kan.
So better jangan kawan dia haha..
But I'm okay now..
Aku ada kawan kawan baik dengan aku masa tu..
Even my ex yang YIP pun always give me heads up..
Seriously aku serabut gila masa tu..
Kereta pun hampir kena tarik..
Ughh
 But now aku bersyukur aku dah lalui semua tu..
And I'm gonna focus on myself..
Even family aku, kawan aku pun suruh aku focus on myself to be better..
Macam tu la lebih kurang..

Aku tak nak lagi berada dalam situasi macam tu lagi..
Aku tak suka rasa useless, hopeless, rejection, feeling sad all the time and aku kurus..
From 85KG aku turun ke 74KG!!
Tapi now dah senang hati balik dah jadi 83KG balik hehe...
 Tapi tu lah.. Kalau aku tak rasa semua kat atas tu aku maybe tak sedar sedar lagi..
Apa yang aku kena utamakan, apa yang aku kena ubah and all lah kan..

So to those feeling down, kena reject, rasa hopeless..
Don't give up.. Just keep trying.. 
You'll never know what tomorrow could happen.
At the end of the day, you only could depend on yourself.
No one understands how you feel inside..
Keep it to yourself and move forward..
If you could through your hardship, your hard day or even your bad day..
You could through anything in your life..
There are a lot more things will happen to you..
Today's hardest thing will be easier tomorrow for you.
Because life teaches you..
And you learned from it..
Every
Fucking
Single
Day